I am amazed at the expectations of some people.
In any case, I do not wish to elaborate. Just feel like it's rather funny, and indeed true that we normally look to others only when we need their help, be it ourselves or others on us.
I guess it's only natural and common.
In any case, I don't feel like blogging so much recently and nothing much to blog about.
I am into the final 2 days of my first job. 2 months plus short of 2 years. Well I guess it's not a long time, but definitely not a short one.
I will miss all my colleagues, that's for sure. But life goes on I guess, and I can only look forward and pray for the best.
Good nites peeps.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Monday, January 28, 2008
感言
心理有许多话想说出来，但又不知怎么开口，从哪里开口。
最近发生一连串的“悲剧”，也经历了一些小“波折”。 但比起他人，我还算是幸福的。
我只是有一点太过敏感，太过急躁，太过小题大做，太过爱黏人，罢了。>.<"
咳，总之一句话，就是我的错吧，我杞人忧天，自寻烦恼，而已。
真的很感谢主，让我认识到我女朋友。她让我的生命又再次有重生的感觉，和她在一起，只有想到开心，把忧郁都往后抛。
虽然，她的口，总是守得紧紧的，但我深信她也对我有一种说不出的情感，关心。这种感觉不用说，心里总是会甜甜的。很肉麻！
最近发生一连串的“悲剧”，也经历了一些小“波折”。 但比起他人，我还算是幸福的。
我只是有一点太过敏感，太过急躁，太过小题大做，太过爱黏人，罢了。>.<"
咳，总之一句话，就是我的错吧，我杞人忧天，自寻烦恼，而已。
真的很感谢主，让我认识到我女朋友。她让我的生命又再次有重生的感觉，和她在一起，只有想到开心，把忧郁都往后抛。
虽然，她的口，总是守得紧紧的，但我深信她也对我有一种说不出的情感，关心。这种感觉不用说，心里总是会甜甜的。很肉麻！
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Treasure everything
I guess everything happens for a reason, and it's for us to know, for others to find out.
The feeling isn't good, especially when you learnt about something sad.
I just want to keep reminding myself, that I must treasure whatever I have, not just material stuff definitely, but other tangible and intangible things.
Oh well, now is not the time to write alot of things, ... but i really do miss my mashimaro alot >.<"
Gdnites all,
BX
The feeling isn't good, especially when you learnt about something sad.
I just want to keep reminding myself, that I must treasure whatever I have, not just material stuff definitely, but other tangible and intangible things.
Oh well, now is not the time to write alot of things, ... but i really do miss my mashimaro alot >.<"
Gdnites all,
BX
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Contradiction Sighz
【星缘命理】射手座女性
基本性格
射手座女性个性优雅，常表现出旁若无人的态度，拥有高远的理想，追求自由和梦想，个性强烈。给人以如沐春风的感觉，即便是年华已逝也会散发着青春的美丽，性格开放活跃。容易害羞，始终保持着少女的纯真，但对自己的评价或传闻较为敏感。有很强的独立精神和丰富的想象力，在平凡的生活中容易感到厌倦。自由的做派和灵光乍现的机智常会使人们惊叹不已，有时也会做出突发奇想的举动。不愿输给他人，性格中有很强的隐秘的一面，重视隐私，缺乏合作精神，常会引起麻烦。
乐天派
即便是有不愉快的事情发生，也总会朝着好的方向想，是个乐天派。会将脱离现实的理想作为目标而奋发努力。
冒失
是行动先于理论的类型。就像体育赛事中经常失误的选手一样冒冒失失。
知性派
看似愚钝，实际上掌握着高水准的知识，特别喜欢哲学。
容易厌倦
兴趣时常在变。特别是在演艺领域，由于绯闻较多，总是被人指指点点。
运动型女孩
运动神经异常发达。无论是何种运动都可以轻松完成，身姿轻盈优雅。
最讨厌束缚
向来希望按照自己的想法自由自在地生活。“规则是为了打破而存在的！”是射手座女性高举的旗帜。
好奇心
对任何事都感兴趣，闲逛、看书等等，什么都喜欢。由于好奇心丰富，所以会吸收各种各样的知识。
心理压力
一旦有心理压力非要说出来不可。虽然没有恶意，但在他人看来这就是一种坏习惯，属于用语言“滥杀无辜”。
情结
有严重的健忘症。说完一件事只要走出3步通常就会将内容忘得一干二净。
谎言
有很强的正义感，所以不爱撒谎。至多是在自己不甚了解的话题上编造一番满足虚荣心而已。
习惯
即便是在茶馆里也不能悠哉游哉地坐下来休息，喝茶后要马上离开。厌倦长时间呆在同一个场所。
幸福感
向着理想奋斗时，以及虽然是了无趣味的话题，但只要是与爱人一起讨论就会有幸福感。
恋爱观
恋爱对象一定要自己选择。但是相对于浪漫的爱情，更喜欢从友谊发展而来的知心好友式的爱情。认为眼神的交流非常重要。
花心程度
愿意给对方自由，也希望自己拥有自由，不喜欢任何束缚。所以花心程度较高。这与容易产生厌倦感的性格密不可分。
长处
射手座在语言上很有天分，特别是英语。生来有较强的行动能力，到国外会如鱼得水，独自去国外旅行很少有障碍。
体质
射手座女性身材和手脚都很修长，虽然胸部不是特别丰满，但由于腰部纤细，所以从整体上看非常匀称，宛如一名少女。但是发胖时会先在胳膊、大腿上长出赘肉，这给部分射手座女性带来苦恼。身体健康，有很强的抵御疾病的能力。但是不可过分相信自己的体质而疏忽大意，如果不注意健康状况，也会在某一天突然倒下或住院长期治疗。有些人会因严重挑食或经常在外就餐导致营养偏缺。如果饮酒过量，容易损害肝脏。还应注意腰痛和过度疲劳。药物容易引起副作用，所以不要使用市场上出售的药物，而是直接到医院就医。
注意点
你过于坦率直白，有时会满不在乎地说出令人心痛的话。你喜欢玩乐，常进行不必要的消费，对金钱概念淡薄，所以要尽量避免携带现金。虽然天生运气好，且事事积极，但如果没有灵活性，总想随心所欲，就会品尝失败的苦果。
职业和金钱
你不是能够在家中相夫教子的类型，只有在社会中较大的活动范围内生活才会得到满足。 追求自由的天性使你满怀探索未知世界的好奇心，所以喜欢冒险，在投机性事业中更会大放异彩。感觉敏锐，动物反射神经发达，有不满足于现状的进取性的气魄。讲究方法，善于处世，常会得到长者的青睐，这会对社会生活产生很大的帮助。虽然不愿输给他人，经常与人发生矛盾，但会成为女性中鲜见的企业最高负责人。
适合的具体职业有外交官、政治家、推销员、设计师、美容师、护士、教师、艺术家等。你是具有清新魅力的理论派，具有毫不逊色于男性的活力，不重视浪漫，重视的是现实。
恋爱和婚姻
你喜欢享受自由的精神世界，大胆开放，同时散发着安静的淑女气质。你很可能会觉得年轻的男性幼稚愚钝，从而与年长的男性交往。20余岁时希望受到许多异性的追逐，乐于赶赴各种约会，有些轻浮。恋爱时喜欢浪漫的气氛。很早就了解性，比较开放，喜爱各种约会方式。不愿受任何束缚，只想享受自己的自由，希望同时品味性爱和精神上的爱。随着日渐成熟，性欲会不断增强并开始主动向丈夫要求，如果无法得到满足就会出现问题。在性生活方面喜爱开放，热衷于在户外或白天发生情事，偏爱英俊智慧的男性。
最理想的结婚对象是白羊座、狮子座男性，在21岁和30岁时会邂逅最理想的男性。如果婚后不参加社会活动，只呆在家里，会因为要求得不到满足而与丈夫出现不和，严重时会导致离婚。
健康和疾病
你属于行动派，所以不必节食就可以保持健康苗条的身段，但是呼吸系统容易患疾病。一定要使休息和活动保持平衡，通宵达旦的玩乐和超出身体负担的长途旅行会使身体失衡，引发肝功能的障碍。
应格外注意疾病的年龄是25、34、46、58岁，由于神经敏锐，应当注意神经症。
住宅
住宅应当采光通风良好，视野辽阔，水和灯具等使用便利。住宅附近最好有散步小径，或有条件建造庭院，如果离市区较近且交通便利，则是上上之选。门窗最好朝西南偏西向，室内空间越宽敞越好，公寓也是不错的选择。
【星缘命理】狮子座男性
基本性格
狮子座男性拥有超然的自信和倔强的韧性，坚信自己的想法，富于个性。相信有志者事竟成，面临任何困境都不会轻言放弃，会凭借坚忍不拔的毅力战胜艰难险阻。个性鲜明，气度不凡，威信十足，身边有众多追随者，有杰出的领导才能。不喜欢受到他人的支配或命令，凡事总想以自己为主，有时会因此酿成大祸。身为狮子座，你的人生将是飞跃性的，同时充满了坎坷，能够很早获得财富，但至少要经历3、4次失败。看似严谨冷漠，但内心孤独感性，脆弱细腻。
注意点
身为狮子座，你个性强硬，自以为是，在获得大多数人认可的同时，也难免会四面树敌，所以应当有所反省。你缺乏灵活性，绝不服输，善于规劝与自己相似的人，但容易被具有女性魅力和心地险恶的人所迷惑。你很早就会被幸运之神眷顾，但要记住30岁之前的好运终究不属于自己，不要贪慕这些，而且要记住一生只能挖一口井。
职业和金钱
少年时期可能会经历精神磨难，有深深的孤独感，家境不够丰裕，但也会有好运。身为狮子座，你在25岁前后将经历几次人生的转折点，但在30岁之后全力冲刺才能获得辉煌的成就。 你具有出色的判断力和勇敢的开拓精神，时常有出众的创意，在风险事业或尖端领域中能够崭露头角。一定要坚守信用和信义，因为这才是你最珍贵的财产和成功的钥匙。
适合的具体职业有政治家、演艺人员、服务行业、推销员、教育家、军人、运输行业等，若独自创业最好从事与现金打交道的事业，若在企业供职，最好从事业务、策划、宣传、贸易、海运等职务，做秘书职务和海外驻扎人员也很不错，但是以独自创业为最佳。
走财运的年龄是28、37、46、55、64岁，有赌运，但如果深陷其中必将倾家荡产。
恋爱和婚姻
不善于对女性表露情感，会因为无法向对方表达深情而内心焦躁。20岁左右遇到的女性和你没有缘分，如果强行结婚必会遭遇许多风波。为了消除心中的孤独感，你会与多名异性进行交往，但如果陷得太深，会阻碍你的发展。你可能会因为外遇，事业困顿或生活不规律而离婚，部分人甚至会建立两个家庭。在性方面精力远比对方旺盛，不懂得甜蜜地呢喃耳语和爱抚，喜欢直奔主题。但也会抑制自己的欲望，使对方领略快乐的感受，有时甚至将主动权交给女方。喜欢奢侈浪费是你的缺点，之所以如此是因为你不懂得克制，以及有炫耀心理在作祟。
最理想的结婚对象是白羊座和射手座女性，28岁和34岁时会邂逅最理想的女性，不宜早婚。你待人亲切温暖，遇到有情调的女性会感觉幸福，能够温柔地领导你的女性是最理想的配偶。
健康和疾病
青年时期应提防泌尿系统和神经系统疾病，壮年时期应注意心脏病和高血压糖尿病。属于敏感体质，要提防过敏和皮肤病，只有适量摄取烟酒和咖啡等嗜好品才能长寿。
应当格外注意疾病的年龄是少年期和26、38、40、56、62岁，肥胖是你的大敌。
住宅
住宅应色调明亮，位于平地或地势较高处，且距离繁华街道远近适宜，客厅宽敞，卧室华丽。需要有自己的单独房间，门窗朝西北偏北向或西南偏西向才吉利。住宅不要在公路旁，应有宽阔的庭院，保证足够的使用空间，且外观庄重有气度。
基本性格
射手座女性个性优雅，常表现出旁若无人的态度，拥有高远的理想，追求自由和梦想，个性强烈。给人以如沐春风的感觉，即便是年华已逝也会散发着青春的美丽，性格开放活跃。容易害羞，始终保持着少女的纯真，但对自己的评价或传闻较为敏感。有很强的独立精神和丰富的想象力，在平凡的生活中容易感到厌倦。自由的做派和灵光乍现的机智常会使人们惊叹不已，有时也会做出突发奇想的举动。不愿输给他人，性格中有很强的隐秘的一面，重视隐私，缺乏合作精神，常会引起麻烦。
乐天派
即便是有不愉快的事情发生，也总会朝着好的方向想，是个乐天派。会将脱离现实的理想作为目标而奋发努力。
冒失
是行动先于理论的类型。就像体育赛事中经常失误的选手一样冒冒失失。
知性派
看似愚钝，实际上掌握着高水准的知识，特别喜欢哲学。
容易厌倦
兴趣时常在变。特别是在演艺领域，由于绯闻较多，总是被人指指点点。
运动型女孩
运动神经异常发达。无论是何种运动都可以轻松完成，身姿轻盈优雅。
最讨厌束缚
向来希望按照自己的想法自由自在地生活。“规则是为了打破而存在的！”是射手座女性高举的旗帜。
好奇心
对任何事都感兴趣，闲逛、看书等等，什么都喜欢。由于好奇心丰富，所以会吸收各种各样的知识。
心理压力
一旦有心理压力非要说出来不可。虽然没有恶意，但在他人看来这就是一种坏习惯，属于用语言“滥杀无辜”。
情结
有严重的健忘症。说完一件事只要走出3步通常就会将内容忘得一干二净。
谎言
有很强的正义感，所以不爱撒谎。至多是在自己不甚了解的话题上编造一番满足虚荣心而已。
习惯
即便是在茶馆里也不能悠哉游哉地坐下来休息，喝茶后要马上离开。厌倦长时间呆在同一个场所。
幸福感
向着理想奋斗时，以及虽然是了无趣味的话题，但只要是与爱人一起讨论就会有幸福感。
恋爱观
恋爱对象一定要自己选择。但是相对于浪漫的爱情，更喜欢从友谊发展而来的知心好友式的爱情。认为眼神的交流非常重要。
花心程度
愿意给对方自由，也希望自己拥有自由，不喜欢任何束缚。所以花心程度较高。这与容易产生厌倦感的性格密不可分。
长处
射手座在语言上很有天分，特别是英语。生来有较强的行动能力，到国外会如鱼得水，独自去国外旅行很少有障碍。
体质
射手座女性身材和手脚都很修长，虽然胸部不是特别丰满，但由于腰部纤细，所以从整体上看非常匀称，宛如一名少女。但是发胖时会先在胳膊、大腿上长出赘肉，这给部分射手座女性带来苦恼。身体健康，有很强的抵御疾病的能力。但是不可过分相信自己的体质而疏忽大意，如果不注意健康状况，也会在某一天突然倒下或住院长期治疗。有些人会因严重挑食或经常在外就餐导致营养偏缺。如果饮酒过量，容易损害肝脏。还应注意腰痛和过度疲劳。药物容易引起副作用，所以不要使用市场上出售的药物，而是直接到医院就医。
注意点
你过于坦率直白，有时会满不在乎地说出令人心痛的话。你喜欢玩乐，常进行不必要的消费，对金钱概念淡薄，所以要尽量避免携带现金。虽然天生运气好，且事事积极，但如果没有灵活性，总想随心所欲，就会品尝失败的苦果。
职业和金钱
你不是能够在家中相夫教子的类型，只有在社会中较大的活动范围内生活才会得到满足。 追求自由的天性使你满怀探索未知世界的好奇心，所以喜欢冒险，在投机性事业中更会大放异彩。感觉敏锐，动物反射神经发达，有不满足于现状的进取性的气魄。讲究方法，善于处世，常会得到长者的青睐，这会对社会生活产生很大的帮助。虽然不愿输给他人，经常与人发生矛盾，但会成为女性中鲜见的企业最高负责人。
适合的具体职业有外交官、政治家、推销员、设计师、美容师、护士、教师、艺术家等。你是具有清新魅力的理论派，具有毫不逊色于男性的活力，不重视浪漫，重视的是现实。
恋爱和婚姻
你喜欢享受自由的精神世界，大胆开放，同时散发着安静的淑女气质。你很可能会觉得年轻的男性幼稚愚钝，从而与年长的男性交往。20余岁时希望受到许多异性的追逐，乐于赶赴各种约会，有些轻浮。恋爱时喜欢浪漫的气氛。很早就了解性，比较开放，喜爱各种约会方式。不愿受任何束缚，只想享受自己的自由，希望同时品味性爱和精神上的爱。随着日渐成熟，性欲会不断增强并开始主动向丈夫要求，如果无法得到满足就会出现问题。在性生活方面喜爱开放，热衷于在户外或白天发生情事，偏爱英俊智慧的男性。
最理想的结婚对象是白羊座、狮子座男性，在21岁和30岁时会邂逅最理想的男性。如果婚后不参加社会活动，只呆在家里，会因为要求得不到满足而与丈夫出现不和，严重时会导致离婚。
健康和疾病
你属于行动派，所以不必节食就可以保持健康苗条的身段，但是呼吸系统容易患疾病。一定要使休息和活动保持平衡，通宵达旦的玩乐和超出身体负担的长途旅行会使身体失衡，引发肝功能的障碍。
应格外注意疾病的年龄是25、34、46、58岁，由于神经敏锐，应当注意神经症。
住宅
住宅应当采光通风良好，视野辽阔，水和灯具等使用便利。住宅附近最好有散步小径，或有条件建造庭院，如果离市区较近且交通便利，则是上上之选。门窗最好朝西南偏西向，室内空间越宽敞越好，公寓也是不错的选择。
【星缘命理】狮子座男性
基本性格
狮子座男性拥有超然的自信和倔强的韧性，坚信自己的想法，富于个性。相信有志者事竟成，面临任何困境都不会轻言放弃，会凭借坚忍不拔的毅力战胜艰难险阻。个性鲜明，气度不凡，威信十足，身边有众多追随者，有杰出的领导才能。不喜欢受到他人的支配或命令，凡事总想以自己为主，有时会因此酿成大祸。身为狮子座，你的人生将是飞跃性的，同时充满了坎坷，能够很早获得财富，但至少要经历3、4次失败。看似严谨冷漠，但内心孤独感性，脆弱细腻。
注意点
身为狮子座，你个性强硬，自以为是，在获得大多数人认可的同时，也难免会四面树敌，所以应当有所反省。你缺乏灵活性，绝不服输，善于规劝与自己相似的人，但容易被具有女性魅力和心地险恶的人所迷惑。你很早就会被幸运之神眷顾，但要记住30岁之前的好运终究不属于自己，不要贪慕这些，而且要记住一生只能挖一口井。
职业和金钱
少年时期可能会经历精神磨难，有深深的孤独感，家境不够丰裕，但也会有好运。身为狮子座，你在25岁前后将经历几次人生的转折点，但在30岁之后全力冲刺才能获得辉煌的成就。 你具有出色的判断力和勇敢的开拓精神，时常有出众的创意，在风险事业或尖端领域中能够崭露头角。一定要坚守信用和信义，因为这才是你最珍贵的财产和成功的钥匙。
适合的具体职业有政治家、演艺人员、服务行业、推销员、教育家、军人、运输行业等，若独自创业最好从事与现金打交道的事业，若在企业供职，最好从事业务、策划、宣传、贸易、海运等职务，做秘书职务和海外驻扎人员也很不错，但是以独自创业为最佳。
走财运的年龄是28、37、46、55、64岁，有赌运，但如果深陷其中必将倾家荡产。
恋爱和婚姻
不善于对女性表露情感，会因为无法向对方表达深情而内心焦躁。20岁左右遇到的女性和你没有缘分，如果强行结婚必会遭遇许多风波。为了消除心中的孤独感，你会与多名异性进行交往，但如果陷得太深，会阻碍你的发展。你可能会因为外遇，事业困顿或生活不规律而离婚，部分人甚至会建立两个家庭。在性方面精力远比对方旺盛，不懂得甜蜜地呢喃耳语和爱抚，喜欢直奔主题。但也会抑制自己的欲望，使对方领略快乐的感受，有时甚至将主动权交给女方。喜欢奢侈浪费是你的缺点，之所以如此是因为你不懂得克制，以及有炫耀心理在作祟。
最理想的结婚对象是白羊座和射手座女性，28岁和34岁时会邂逅最理想的女性，不宜早婚。你待人亲切温暖，遇到有情调的女性会感觉幸福，能够温柔地领导你的女性是最理想的配偶。
健康和疾病
青年时期应提防泌尿系统和神经系统疾病，壮年时期应注意心脏病和高血压糖尿病。属于敏感体质，要提防过敏和皮肤病，只有适量摄取烟酒和咖啡等嗜好品才能长寿。
应当格外注意疾病的年龄是少年期和26、38、40、56、62岁，肥胖是你的大敌。
住宅
住宅应色调明亮，位于平地或地势较高处，且距离繁华街道远近适宜，客厅宽敞，卧室华丽。需要有自己的单独房间，门窗朝西北偏北向或西南偏西向才吉利。住宅不要在公路旁，应有宽阔的庭院，保证足够的使用空间，且外观庄重有气度。
H A P P Y
I am very happy la...
Don't ask me why, just happy. Cos' of the series of events that happened recently and another level has been achieved.
I am really in deep deep deep love mode now... so everything sounds like mushroom, jinz mushy... >.<"
2008 will be good year I guess?
While I know everything is still a big question mark, I am still looking forward to the wonderful surprises and all the good things that awaits me at the end...
I have a new dream and a new hope... I hope to realise it sooner than later...
Gdnites all!
God Bless,
Baoxuan
Don't ask me why, just happy. Cos' of the series of events that happened recently and another level has been achieved.
I am really in deep deep deep love mode now... so everything sounds like mushroom, jinz mushy... >.<"
2008 will be good year I guess?
While I know everything is still a big question mark, I am still looking forward to the wonderful surprises and all the good things that awaits me at the end...
I have a new dream and a new hope... I hope to realise it sooner than later...
Gdnites all!
God Bless,
Baoxuan
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Man Utd 6 -0 Newcastle
Hi,
For those who are into football, love it or hate it... Here is the 6-0 demolishing of Newcastle by MANCHESTER UNITED.
Download to watch.
Thanks!
http://www.divshare.com/download/3444111-ecb
For those who are into football, love it or hate it... Here is the 6-0 demolishing of Newcastle by MANCHESTER UNITED.
Download to watch.
Thanks!
http://www.divshare.com/download/3444111-ecb
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
Self-examination
Today you need to ask yourself what the biggest issue in your relationships is. The answer will be illuminating, to say the least. If you find that the issue is the same with everyone, then you know that you need to start examining what you are doing and why you might be doing it. If the answer depends on who the person is, then you know that the problem might reside in their attitudes more than yours. Either way, taking time to reflect on how you relate to others is valuable now.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
Too eng
I am so bo liao, so bored, so sianz and no one to turn to, that I have to talk to myself. Hence I decided to blog and blog again... >.<"
Sighz, so much going on, so much happening and so many changes taking place that I don't really know how to react.
I am thinking too much, doing too little... haizzz
Eeeks! I am a guai tai...
Sighz, so much going on, so much happening and so many changes taking place that I don't really know how to react.
I am thinking too much, doing too little... haizzz
Eeeks! I am a guai tai...
Growing Up
As much as I believe I am as childish as a 28-year-old can get, I also believe that with each and every experience that I am going through, I am gaining wisdom, and losing that "childish-ness" that I have been carrying all these while.
I must admit that I am different from alot alot of other guys, in the sense that I am not only slow, I am damn slow in picking up what other guys already picked up 3-5 years ago, in every literal sense. Being born in an environment where I never ever had to worry about money (not that I am rich), does not really help at all. I am spoilt, pampered in every sense. I am glad the Singapore Armed Forces trained me to be like a man, a soldier and having not undergone "keng-ing" to downgrade, I am proud to achieve this feat of going through almost 2.5 years of being a man at least.
I don't know why, but it seems that I am really looking forward to everything now, and I have alot of feelings, jumbled up within me, that I can't wait to share, but yet do not wish to divulge everything. It's that dilemma that is unbearable. >.<"
I am REALLY fortunate, and when I say really, I can't stress how sincere, how real that is. I guess I can't elaborate anymore, but I want to thank God for His love for me, and only He will know...
These two days have been a roller-coaster for me, I guess it's all for the good. And on top of these, I have someone in my life that I look forward to seeing or hearing everyday.
The bottomline is, when I looked back, I have never been happier or clearer in knowing what I want, and what I am looking for, and I hate to brag (or is there even anything to brag about), but it does have something to do with age. As I FINALLY grow older, I think I have seen enough to know what I want and to really TREASURE what I have, and be CONTENTED with it.
My other new year resolution would have to include understanding what people who matter to me the most wants from me, and knowing why, as well as trying to be nice to them. This will only serve to bridge any gaps between me and them, and although there are times where emotions just come into play, but I know that they mean alot to me, and that I will treasure them.
It's fun to be able to look into things from another person's angle, especially if that person is someone you love, and you never knew you can feel that way, or you can actually not resent feeling that way. =)
Love is really powerful and strange, it can draw people closer in ways you cannot imagine.
I should stop being so feminine-like in my behaviour, as much as I exhibit characteristics of my birth month. >.<"
Okie, I think I am starting to blabber nonsense again...
Time for bed...
Gdnites folks...
Have a great weekend!
Bless all,
Amen.
Xuan
I must admit that I am different from alot alot of other guys, in the sense that I am not only slow, I am damn slow in picking up what other guys already picked up 3-5 years ago, in every literal sense. Being born in an environment where I never ever had to worry about money (not that I am rich), does not really help at all. I am spoilt, pampered in every sense. I am glad the Singapore Armed Forces trained me to be like a man, a soldier and having not undergone "keng-ing" to downgrade, I am proud to achieve this feat of going through almost 2.5 years of being a man at least.
I don't know why, but it seems that I am really looking forward to everything now, and I have alot of feelings, jumbled up within me, that I can't wait to share, but yet do not wish to divulge everything. It's that dilemma that is unbearable. >.<"
I am REALLY fortunate, and when I say really, I can't stress how sincere, how real that is. I guess I can't elaborate anymore, but I want to thank God for His love for me, and only He will know...
These two days have been a roller-coaster for me, I guess it's all for the good. And on top of these, I have someone in my life that I look forward to seeing or hearing everyday.
The bottomline is, when I looked back, I have never been happier or clearer in knowing what I want, and what I am looking for, and I hate to brag (or is there even anything to brag about), but it does have something to do with age. As I FINALLY grow older, I think I have seen enough to know what I want and to really TREASURE what I have, and be CONTENTED with it.
My other new year resolution would have to include understanding what people who matter to me the most wants from me, and knowing why, as well as trying to be nice to them. This will only serve to bridge any gaps between me and them, and although there are times where emotions just come into play, but I know that they mean alot to me, and that I will treasure them.
It's fun to be able to look into things from another person's angle, especially if that person is someone you love, and you never knew you can feel that way, or you can actually not resent feeling that way. =)
Love is really powerful and strange, it can draw people closer in ways you cannot imagine.
I should stop being so feminine-like in my behaviour, as much as I exhibit characteristics of my birth month. >.<"
Okie, I think I am starting to blabber nonsense again...
Time for bed...
Gdnites folks...
Have a great weekend!
Bless all,
Amen.
Xuan
Thursday, January 3, 2008
What a 1st day of work in 2008
Today is my official first day of work in 2008, due to the fact that I did not recover in time to start work yesterday. In fact, I am actually on MC until end of today.
A series of events took place that I already expected, but just can't seem to take control over my emotions. Just feel sad that I have made a decision, and I will stick to it no matter what. However, like she said, no point worrying or crying over things for the sake of crying or worrying, certain things are just meant to be, and just meant to be passed by. Since work is just work, and we all have to get on with it to get our bread and butter and not just waste our lives away, we might as well look forward to what we want to look for in working.
Some people work to pass time, some it's because they have to, not because they need to, i.e. their families don't have silver spoons, cos' all golden ones, but their parents simply don't allow them to pass their time by and not to let them think money comes by so easily. But I guess the majority is just like myself, work to keep ourselves alive, as well as to fight for a better life and earn to support a family eventually.
I have tonnes and tonnes of words to write, but I don't really feel like writing everything down, cos' I can't phrase them in proper sentences. All I want to say is that no matter what it is, nothing can replace family, family love, and unless your loved one cherishes you as much as his/her family, i.e. you are married already, it will never be equal or near to that kind of love.
Still, I long and look forward to that happening, and given that I am a (really) simple guy, all I really want is to settle down with someone who is really TRUE to me, and cherishes me. To ask for equality is not love, cos' love is never ever equal. Just like how much we may claim that we love God, it can not be measured against God's love for us.
We are afterall, human beings, God's creation.
I hope after this series of ups and downs, and clarifications yada yada... I will grow to become a stronger person in life, mentally and emotionally.
^^
A series of events took place that I already expected, but just can't seem to take control over my emotions. Just feel sad that I have made a decision, and I will stick to it no matter what. However, like she said, no point worrying or crying over things for the sake of crying or worrying, certain things are just meant to be, and just meant to be passed by. Since work is just work, and we all have to get on with it to get our bread and butter and not just waste our lives away, we might as well look forward to what we want to look for in working.
Some people work to pass time, some it's because they have to, not because they need to, i.e. their families don't have silver spoons, cos' all golden ones, but their parents simply don't allow them to pass their time by and not to let them think money comes by so easily. But I guess the majority is just like myself, work to keep ourselves alive, as well as to fight for a better life and earn to support a family eventually.
I have tonnes and tonnes of words to write, but I don't really feel like writing everything down, cos' I can't phrase them in proper sentences. All I want to say is that no matter what it is, nothing can replace family, family love, and unless your loved one cherishes you as much as his/her family, i.e. you are married already, it will never be equal or near to that kind of love.
Still, I long and look forward to that happening, and given that I am a (really) simple guy, all I really want is to settle down with someone who is really TRUE to me, and cherishes me. To ask for equality is not love, cos' love is never ever equal. Just like how much we may claim that we love God, it can not be measured against God's love for us.
We are afterall, human beings, God's creation.
I hope after this series of ups and downs, and clarifications yada yada... I will grow to become a stronger person in life, mentally and emotionally.
^^
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
2008 - A New Beginning Again
Hello everyone, best wishes for the year 2008!
I just came back from Fullerton, where there were fireworks display as we counted down to 2008 1st January.
Although I wasn't exactly 100% fit or fully recovered from my fever and cough, I felt good, happy and contented.
Last year, my countdown was quite sad case, as I had to come back to office on BOTH 31st Dec and 1st Jan, imagine that.
This year, it's a totally different case, having the luxury of spending the countdown, New Year Eve with my loved one, and her sisters and best friend. Hehe...
A pity I couldn't join the rest of my friends in counting down as everything was rather last minute and I was not in a healthy condition to do all the planning etc., etc.
Anyway, hope all my friends enjoyed the countdown as well and got to see the fireworks be it at home or outside.
2008, like any other year, promises to be a new beginning, and new resolutions have to be made and hopefully MET.
I have posted mine in my earlier posts, and I intend to follow through them as far as I can.
There will be plenty of changes and decisions to be made, and although I can't know if I have made the right choice until later, I believe that with perserverance and determination, nothing can be in my way from succeeding and reaching my goal.
Last but not least, I am just thankful to God for allowing me to recover in time to spend NYE and countdown with my loved one, my dear...
Thank You Lord!
God Bless Everyone,
Xuan
I just came back from Fullerton, where there were fireworks display as we counted down to 2008 1st January.
Although I wasn't exactly 100% fit or fully recovered from my fever and cough, I felt good, happy and contented.
Last year, my countdown was quite sad case, as I had to come back to office on BOTH 31st Dec and 1st Jan, imagine that.
This year, it's a totally different case, having the luxury of spending the countdown, New Year Eve with my loved one, and her sisters and best friend. Hehe...
A pity I couldn't join the rest of my friends in counting down as everything was rather last minute and I was not in a healthy condition to do all the planning etc., etc.
Anyway, hope all my friends enjoyed the countdown as well and got to see the fireworks be it at home or outside.
2008, like any other year, promises to be a new beginning, and new resolutions have to be made and hopefully MET.
I have posted mine in my earlier posts, and I intend to follow through them as far as I can.
There will be plenty of changes and decisions to be made, and although I can't know if I have made the right choice until later, I believe that with perserverance and determination, nothing can be in my way from succeeding and reaching my goal.
Last but not least, I am just thankful to God for allowing me to recover in time to spend NYE and countdown with my loved one, my dear...
Thank You Lord!
God Bless Everyone,
Xuan
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