Xing Fu

I am feeling lazy and lethargic, but I guess most pple are feeling similar to I am, as it's the last few days of 2007, and a new year is coming.

Today, as in 28th, happens to be my off-day as I have to clear my leave after one year of just clearing 2 other days of annual leave. If you tell me I had to spend my leave at home watching TV, i probably find it extremely wasteful.

However, I spent the bulk of my day at 'home', and thoroughly enjoyed every moment of it. Watched the last 6 VCDs of "Huan Huan Ai" with her, and watched her as she whipped up a sumptous dinner for me. ^_^

Pure bliss, that's what I call it.

We went to walk around the neighbourhood shops, and thereafter watched one movie, before I sent her home. We walked to and fro the neighbourhood, covering a distance of more than 6 bus-stops in total at least. Things can be achieved without a car, it's not that difficult I guess.

Where there is love, nothing is insurmountable. =X

Now I need to brainstorm for ideas for countdown on 31st Dec, am at a loss as there probably are many pple anywhere we can possibly think of.

Hmm...

Resolutions

I have got quite a few number of resolutions to make in the year 2008. Let me list them down now and check against them as it goes...

Disclaimer: I may left out some, but will add them as I go along.

1) To live a happy life (which naturally includes being with my dear)
2) To get fat as in F A T
3) To work out and exercise on a weekly basis
4) To continue my walk with God no matter how hard it gets, or how far away I may be
5) To continue building up my relationship with my dear and to be there for her as best as I can
6) To work towards a WELL, WELL, WELL-DESERVED and LONG-AWAITED trip to Korea or Japan or Korea AND Japan at the end of 2008
7) To spend LESS and think more for long-term, and to reward only when necessary
8) To set up a savings account solely for long-term and lifetime commitment
9) To build up my confidence and work towards being a REAL consultant and not an engineer (I don't want to be an engineer)

Extravagance

I am in an extremely SPENDING-SPREE mood.

I have spent more this week than any other months' total except for November. >.<"

I have to really control myself, otherwise I might be spending more than I can earn? >.<"

Torn between

I'm in a dilemma once again, torn between being there and totally not there.

My life has always been such a case... haiz... >.<"

23rd December 2007, 24th December 2007, 25th December 2007 ...

Maybe I should recap what has gone wrong and right throughout this year... and reflect upon anything that hasn't gone well.

It's more meaningful than sighing and complaining and whining...

Precious moments

I've received lots of presents this year, more than I have received for any of the past 5 years?

It's so strange, but I feel blessed and fortunate for everything that has happened and I am really glad things turned out well so far.

Christmas is a time of loving, caring and sharing, the value of the gifts does not matter, but rather the well wishes that we want to bless our loved ones with.

I want to wish everyone a Merry and Blessed Christmas and may your wishes come true!

Baoxuan

Xiao Jing Teng

a better tomorrow

It's been quite a while, since I have touched my blog. Just wanted to touch on a few issues happening right now in my life.

My personal life, especially in affairs of love life (sad to say except with God) has been great. I can't complain anymore and I really feel so fortunate to have found my loved one. =)

Things have been on a rollercoaster ride in other aspects of my life, be it other personal matters, or career matters, and even my walk with God.

I must admit that laziness is a big factor on my part, and refusal to put things into perspective and action.

I hope and I pray to God that He will work His miracles on me just like He did. And I do want to spend a meaningful pre-Christmas evening at the Church.

I want to thank God for everything He has seen to in my life, giving me chance after chance, one good thing after another.

Oh well, now is the time to put things right and get my arse off working right now.

I've got a mountain load of work waiting for me... Zzz...

HAPPY

I am really happy now. I feel so fortunate, just like a 3-year old boy get his sweets or goodies to eat, in fact, it's even better than that feeling. Indescribable. >.<"

Just want to savour the moment and appreciate everything that I have.


蔡旻佑 - 我可以
寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背景有我爱你
我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想又再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你
幸福它真的不容易

Stress

I am feeling stressed out. On the surface, things are really looking good for me now. But deep inside me, I haven't been doing enough, especially things which will help me. Nonetheless, I am happy and contented with what I have, and I am thankful for everything.

Dear God, Thank You for everything wonderful that You have given me, and although I haven't been faithful enough to attend services regularly, You still showered Your love upon me and helped me through any difficulties I might have faced over the past few weeks.

I just hope and pray everything will work in favour, and if things should not turn out the way it can be, I pray that I will be quick enough to react and You will help me get through it.

I want to pray also for my best friends, who are facing sort of personal issues, and that You will see them through the most difficult periods, and find the goodness in each other that they were able to see in the past.

In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

Fickle-minded

I guess I am really fickle-minded when it comes to work and other stuff. I really hate myself for that. I am really too much of a people-person, to the point I easily can affected and swayed by words people say. Too much of everything is bad I thought so, and it's good to take a stand and have your own decision without getting affected by others.

There is a dramatic U-turn now and I really don't know if I should say this. But I guess for those who do not know, probably you can just treat it like nothing has happened bah (or at least for my sake, don't ask). Thanks!

Have a great weekend people and I see if I will survive the run tomorrow.

42.195km...

Take care...

Till then...

Quotes of the day

Do not make promise when you are in joy.
Do not reply when you are sad.
Do not take decision when you are angry.
Think twice..,Act Wise.

Don't let someone become a priority in your life, when you are just an option in their life…
Relationships work best when they are balanced.

Time is like a river. You cannot touch the same water twice, because the flow that has passed will never pass again. Enjoy every moment of life..

Never explain yourself to anyone.
Because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you won't believe it.

You are an attentive thinker

My personalDNA Report

about you
You are a Thinker

Your cautiousness, appreciation of functionality, and imagination combine to make you a THINKER.

You have a vivid capacity for imagery that allows you to see beyond your present circumstances.

You like to be sure of yourself before voicing your opinion.

A lot of your time is spent at home, or with the people you care about.

Although you may dream often, you're very aware of how things work, and you value things that work well.

You take comfort in the familiar, and value predictability—and others value those things in you.

Accordingly, you prefer a set routine, and although you often imagine how things can be different, you're hesitant to take risks to change things.

Sometimes you doubt whether you have the ability to face certain challenges, but your practical focus helps you solve most problems.

Because of this, you tend to be more reactive than proactive, thinking thoroughly about the challenges that you face.

You have a broad-based, theoretical understanding of the world that allows you to understand its workings.

You're not afraid to let your emotions guide you, and you're generally considerate of others' feelings as well.

You tend to believe that things happen for a reason, and that not everything is under our control.


If you want to be different:

Try indulging your imagination a bit more by experiencing new and different things.

Have a little more faith in your capacity to do things—turn your thoughts into actions!


how you relate to others
You are Attentive

Because you like spending time with others, understand their feelings, and often know what is best for them, you are ATTENTIVE.

Some people are merely concerned about others, but you take action, helping people when you have the opportunity.

Although you care about others, you are hesitant to trust them to act in the best way on their own.

You don't let your concerns with people go unnoticed: if someone has hurt your feelings, that person will hear about it.

People energize and excite you—you are able to have fun and be yourself when you're around others.

You also learn a lot about yourself by talking things out with people, even if you don't always share things that are important to you.

You have a strong sense of right and wrong, and you're not hesitant to express yourself.

Understanding the dynamics of a situation is an important skill that you have, and you often intervene to clarify things for others.


If you want to be different:

You care about people, but finding the ones you can truly trust will allow you to get closer to them.

While you have strong opinions about what is right and wrong in the world, you risk coming across as judgmental—be sure to consider different perspectives when voicing your opinion.


Your Personal DNA Maps
Here are personalDNA maps that uniquely represent your personality. Mouse over any part of the box or strip to learn more about the traits that the colors represent.


This chart shows thirteen personality traits. Each bar indicates the percentage of test takers who entered a lower value for that trait than you did. For example, if Confidence is at 80, that means that 80% of people entered lower values for confidence questions than you did. Based on a sample of 30,000 users. Click here to learn more about the traits.

Confidence
Low - High 10%
Openness
Low - High 20%
Extroversion
Low - High 48%
Empathy
Low - High 94%
Trust in others
Low - High 12%
Agency
Low - High 6%
Masculinity
Low - High 38%
Femininity
Low - High 60%
Spontaneity
Low - High 36%
Attention to style
Low - High 44%
Authoritarianism
Low - High 64%
Earthy/Imaginative
Imaginative - Earthy 22%
Aesthetic/Functional
Functional - Aesthetic 18%

The Secret

Just finished watching "The Secret" finally after a couple of months trying to catch that show. Now I understand why people said it's a good show. Jay Chow is really suitable for a role like this, and it's a touching story.

I really wonder and amaze at the things people will do for love. For love, everything is possible. Love is so powerful and great and hard to find, that, sometimes you know that when you found the right one, you will cling on to it like you never want to do anything without it. I m guilty of being too emotional at times, and I guess that can be my greatest asset rather than my shortcoming. All I know is, whether it is real or it is just a figment of my imagination (which I hope not), when you found your true love, cling on to it and don't lose it.

I have alot of things which I want to share, but I do not have the time now. Maybe I will share more when I have the time soon.

Take care all and God bless,
Baoxuan

Friendships

While I can't emphasize enough how wonderful some friends are, I also can't deny the fact that some friends are better off without their existence.

I count myself fortunate to have a few really good buddies sticking around by me whether I am down or I am up, happy or sad... To me, that's what is most important. Being able to be there for your friends when they need you.

On the other hand, I am ashamed to say that although I have tried to be there for some of my friends, I can't cater to all of them, as I am only human.

Anyway, as I was saying, I have already made one of my 2 important decisions, and will be carrying out the other today. In fact, I ALREADY have made my decision earlier, just the execution left till today. =X

Someone told me Leos may appear as the most arrogant, proud star sign, but they are actually the MOST emotional and most "easily-injured" zodiac of all the other 11. >.<"

I should not be believing in Zodiacs and star signs in any case, but somehow I feel a little inclined to agreeing with what they say.

Alright, shall stop for now and get ready for my action plans.

Shall update more when I know of my "results"...

Till then!

Have a blessed Sunday everyone!

Regards,
Baoxuan

For The Guitar Enthusiasts

For those who play the guitar, and are interested in learning the song "Cai Hong" by Jay Chow:

(Disclaimer: I figured the chords myself, the positioning of the chords at the lyrics are not really accurate. =P)

哪里有彩虹告诉我 ， 能不能把我的愿望还给我
D G A G D F#m Bm

为什么天这么安静， 所有的云都跑到我这里
G A F#m Bm Em A A

有没有口罩一个给我
D G A G

释怀说了太多就成真不了
D F#m Bm Bm/A

也许时间是一种解药
G A F#m Bm

也是我现在正服下的毒药
Em A A

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
G A F#m Bm

你的身影这么近我却抱不到
Em A D Dm7

没有地球太阳开始环绕
G F# Bm

没有理由我也能自己逃
Em A A

你要离开 我知道很简单
D F#m Bm / A

你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
G A D A

就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
D F# Bm E

当作我最后才明白
G A D


RAP
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药


Enjoy!

真爱轩言

In the space of the next 3-4 days, I will make 2 very important decisions, one of which I already made in fact.

It will affect me greatly, practically everything, including my belief. I sincerely pray to God that He will not forsake me, and continue to send His angels to remind me, that no matter what decisions I've made, He will be there to help me out, as well as guide me to help others, especially those I love.

I feel like I am standing at the crossroad junction, eagerly anticipating crossing the road to the other end, where I can see rainbows and all the nice stuff...

It's a mixed feeling of excitement, eager with anticipation of the things to come, as well as a feeling of happiness and contentment. I want this feeling to last, and I know God will be helping me along.

Thank you Lord for everything You have made possible for me...

I give You thanks and praise for everything made so wonderful by You, without You whom everything is not possible.

Thank You...

Your view on yourself

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Rainbow

哪里有彩虹告诉我 ， 能不能把我的愿望还给我
为什么天这么安静， 所有的音都跑到我这里

有没有口罩一个给我
释怀说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药

看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕
没有理由我也能自己逃

你要离开 我知道很简单
你说依赖 是我们的阻碍
就算放开 那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

RAP
看不见你的笑
要我怎么睡得着
你的身影这么近我却抱不到
没有地球太阳开始环绕环绕
没有理由我也能自己走掉
是我说了太多就成真不了
也许时间是一种解药解药
也是我现在正服下的毒药